Oh, the frustration.

Right now I am so frustrated it's not fair. I am craving so much that I can't have, or maybe more SHOULDN'T but the cravings are really bad, and I'm a diet so I can't eat to get over them, bit like in Sex and the City, Samantha - "I eat, so I don't cheat" for me it's more eating so I don't just, you know! Don't want to get too personal on this blog. Use your imagination. So yeah, basically, I am dying inside, my mate, Matt, says to go for it, but, I can never tell if he's serious to be honest. Probably not, but hey, who knows, I don't want to yet, but...I do, so very much. It's very complicated, damn this frustration. But yes things with the new other half are going well either way I think, quite happy, he is so sweet and such a gentleman when he wants to be haha. But really, although 'frustrated' I am very happy right now. I mean yeah people at school are funny with it, and the kissing and what not, but hey, sod 'em to be honest, our life, if we want to we can I mean, hey, why not, other couples do it! So yeah, I wore some blue tights today =) .