A little fun.

Today, Sara, David and me went back to Sara's house during our double free period and lunch, it was...fun. I mean yeah I liked it I just...felt awkward and don't really know how to feel about it. I had fun though so my head is very confused, I wanted to reject all that was happening but other parts of me were telling me to just bite my tongue...(or his...) and let it be, it was good, can't deny that but, Sara was there, felt incredibly awkward, but, hey, it's gunna happen sooner or later, just maybe in private next time. He needs to learn control I think, we were thinking of getting a tazer, or a BB gun could do the trick. But no, we had a water can to spray him with. Hehe, was funny, I do love him, I just have to think whether it's just my desire and need for it, or whether I do actually really, really love him, because obviously my head still isn't too good from my ex. I am not just some whore who will sleep with someone for the sake of it either, I really have to be able to trust him, and he has to have respect for me, then maybe it can happen, who knows right now, everyone says I should wait but, in the end, it's my decision.