Hiking in the Brecons.

Well, yesterday I went for a good old hike in the Brecon Beacons in Wales with my dad, James, Kevin and Liam. It was...interesting. We had to actually climb, hands and knees, up a rocky hill with a little, almost waterfall, running down it. It was so scary but really fun! It was very snowy high up as well, I am actually amazed at how well I did, and I am so chuffed. We had a few rests, maybe like 3 or so, which I think makes it even better. We made it to the very top!! That's 2800 ft up, we climbed a total of 1200 ft (we started a bit off the ground anyway) and when I look back at what we did I couldn't believe it, I just though, I did that!? Coming off the top of the peak was fun as it was snowy and slippy so me and Liam decided to just slide down on our arses haha, was much easier for us, and was more fun. I actually gained more confidence in this whole climbing/hiking malarkey and I am very proud of myself. One thing is though, we did go off the peak the wrong way an up ended up walking an extra 2 or 3 hours to find our way to Brecon! Where we managed to find a pub and Kevin found the car and took us back. It was most definitely an adventure and I can't wait for the next one, where hopefully my Davey can come, and some other friends too! That'll make it even more fun hehe.

Party.

Last night was Simon's birthday party. It was pretty fun actually. Spent a lot of the night outside with a smaller crew haha. I didn't know like, over half the people so, yeah, anyway, I got quite drunk off wine haha, really wasn't too good to be honest, needed help walking home haha. Actually needed help to stand too towards the end haha. Good ol' James helping me =) he is a lovely one. But yeah, good night, me and Sara had a little dance, and I kind of kept phoning my boyfriend and yeah...never mind but it was funny, I'll say that. All in all though a great night. Missed the parties with those guys to be honest, it was nice to have one with 'em again.

What a day.

Well, went round my boyfriends house for the first time today. Was good. All I'm gunna say is two words, 'whipped cream'. Think of it what you will haha. But yeah, no, was a really good day and I am so happy, I could cry! Yeah...anyway. Met his mum, me and my dad SWEAR we have seen her before...quite annoying haha, but hey, I'm sure we'll get it. But yes, shorter post today as I feel ill/my stomach is in agony. But yeah, great day, very happy and oh my God, going hiking tomorrow, and am bringing David! Should be fun! =)

Valentines.

Well, I think today was rather pleasant =) I had a lovely time with David and frankly was just...great! We made a cake and it kind of failed but oh well, was fun making it. Was a really good day I am so happy but I am not going to go into why, it's just not appropriate haha. But yes, was a lovely day and I just wish he didn't have to leave, not seeing him 'till Wednesday, least I hope I see him then! Will be very upset if I don't but yes, no today was good and I really feel so, happy. Haven't felt that in..a fairly long time. He really is way better and, nearer to amazing to be frank. Very happy and just, yay, I miss him now though haha. Ohh. Well there's always more times I can see him I guess. Love you. Happiness!

Not a whore.

So, title concerning you? It shouldn't. Basically, my lover, David, had to leave part way through lunch because his memory is clearly appalling and so, well we were all sort of bored so we decided to take some rather...incriminating photos of myself with some of the guys in the group. Not like too whorish, we were in school! But you know just like, we tried to make it look like we were kissing and so on. So yes, was rather amusing if I'm honest. I mean obviously I don't like any of these guys in that way but it was really funny to do, I was practically in fits, and David doesn't seem too annoyed so I'm happy :) I mean I wanted to you know get a reaction but I am glad he's not mad because I hope he knows I only really mainly have eyes for him right now, he is just too sweet, yes somewhat cheeky and has a slight lack of control, but we can fix that...oooooh yes. Anywho, not much else happened really, just a normal typical Friday. Oh yeah, and Matt got shat on by a bird :) Poor Matt.

A little fun.

Today, Sara, David and me went back to Sara's house during our double free period and lunch, it was...fun. I mean yeah I liked it I just...felt awkward and don't really know how to feel about it. I had fun though so my head is very confused, I wanted to reject all that was happening but other parts of me were telling me to just bite my tongue...(or his...) and let it be, it was good, can't deny that but, Sara was there, felt incredibly awkward, but, hey, it's gunna happen sooner or later, just maybe in private next time. He needs to learn control I think, we were thinking of getting a tazer, or a BB gun could do the trick. But no, we had a water can to spray him with. Hehe, was funny, I do love him, I just have to think whether it's just my desire and need for it, or whether I do actually really, really love him, because obviously my head still isn't too good from my ex. I am not just some whore who will sleep with someone for the sake of it either, I really have to be able to trust him, and he has to have respect for me, then maybe it can happen, who knows right now, everyone says I should wait but, in the end, it's my decision.

Oh, the frustration.

Right now I am so frustrated it's not fair. I am craving so much that I can't have, or maybe more SHOULDN'T but the cravings are really bad, and I'm a diet so I can't eat to get over them, bit like in Sex and the City, Samantha - "I eat, so I don't cheat" for me it's more eating so I don't just, you know! Don't want to get too personal on this blog. Use your imagination. So yeah, basically, I am dying inside, my mate, Matt, says to go for it, but, I can never tell if he's serious to be honest. Probably not, but hey, who knows, I don't want to yet, but...I do, so very much. It's very complicated, damn this frustration. But yes things with the new other half are going well either way I think, quite happy, he is so sweet and such a gentleman when he wants to be haha. But really, although 'frustrated' I am very happy right now. I mean yeah people at school are funny with it, and the kissing and what not, but hey, sod 'em to be honest, our life, if we want to we can I mean, hey, why not, other couples do it! So yeah, I wore some blue tights today =) .

Shopping is so much fun.

Well, yesterday, me, my boyfriend, and Sara, my lovely friendy went shopping. Now this may not sound shocking but going with my boyfriend, David, made it so much more funny. He thought it would be fun and relaxing, and where do we take the poor boy? Clothes shops, accessory shops...and best of all, Ann Summers. He really enjoyed that one haha. I think for the most of it he was just clinging onto me for dear life bless him. Yeah when me and Sara went into the changing rooms he was left alone with a nice pornographic board game lol, i think an assistant spoke to him too, which i think just made everything better lol. But yes, was a good day in general I think, had a nice fatty Frappacino @ Starbucks, was SO yummy. Saw my ex, Daryl in town though, but hey, I was sane about it, didn't go mad like i though I could. Was okay, he did talk to David on the way back, as David had to get the bus back to mine so, yeah, that was awkward but luckily there was no arguments, thank god!! But yes, all in all, was a good day, i liked it. Sara drove me home in her car! I think she did pretty well, she only stalled a few times!! Haha, bless her x

The Intro.

Okay. First blog. Exciting. Um, hi. I am Sam (if you hadn't already guessed from the title of the whole blog anyway) and yeah, I'm currently in year 12. It's pretty good, way better than normal school! But yeah, you don't care about that do you? Um, I say recently, okay, no recently, I broke up with my boyfriend of nearly 3 years...but now, happy times, I have another. He is pretty nice, funny as anything! Love it hehe. Yeah, I mean obviously things are going slow because, you know, I said recently so, don't want to be rushing but yeah, just seeing how it all goes, you know, see if it can work out. He wants to join the army..slight dilemma BUT, I am one who will respect the decisions of others so if he wants to he can, we may not even last that long anyway I mean, who knows?! If we don't it wont be as much of an issue so...yeah, anyway, life is better, hasn't been to great recently but you know, I have my friends and now my boyfriend to help me. You know what, I need like a code name for everyone I want to mention in my blog, everybody does it, in case I want a good little bitch you know? Even though if they saw they would KNOW but I don't care I'd feel so cool having a little code to myself. Yeah, I'm weird, I talk like I'm talking to somebody, hopefully that is the point in a blog though, I hope, if not just, somebody tell me and I will stop. But yeah, so...here's the first of maybe many blog posts...see if my life gets interesting any time soon, it doesn't normally.