Could I be the only hope for you, because you're the only hope for me ♥

Hmm...

Have been hanging out with Ross' mates more now I'm 18.

It's fun.
Definitely, love being out and about but...


Ross smokes more when we hang out with them..
And it's starting to get to me..

I love him, more than anything, it's amazing but...
This smoking scenario...
It's getting to me...

And I dont like it...
It hurts...


I mean they all smoke and stuff, and Ross gets the temptation and joins in and I'm sat there like...hmm, awkward, then at the pub or whatever they're all like "fag?" and go off outside and again...I'm just sat there...awkward...alone.

It sucks.


It's not me losing any feelings for Ross. ♥♥
Far from it, I'm just...yeah, hating the smoking.
I dont wanna stop hanging out with his mates either cos yeah, it is nice to get out and stuff and he's with his mates...and happy and shit so yeah, can't stop that, wouldn't want to.

Gah why do all his mates have to fucking smoke?!?!
Makes life complicated...ah well..
It'll get better...


I'm sure of it...

xo