Bad, bad, bad.

Exams. Life. My mind.
All not very good. My German oral is nearing and I am so going to fail it! My chose topic isn't ready, I have to get it ready then learn it in like 2 weeks, ish. I am not doing so good right now. All the exams are mid-May end of May and so yeah, they're getting here. I am so stressed out about them and I'm worried that its affecting my mind into thinking other things, but then I think well maybe it's true? Maybe its not my mind, then everything's fine again, then its not it's just... ARGH WTF GRR!! I am really moody and yeah I need him, but he's not around and its killing me...didn't even speak to him today...it's driving me insane, maybe I'm too needy for him...so worried, I don't want that to be the case but, it could be I mean, maybe its just the timing what with exams and revision but AH I need to see him. Now. I just want to cry to be honest. I just want to hide away in another world where everything is perfect...I hope we talk to tomorrow. I hope I SEE him tomorrow...I really need to... I need to clear this up before I go too crazy.