Love to hate you.

Sam is VERY confused right now, I don't like it. Oh well. Love's a bitch eh?
And OMG GERMAN ORAL ON TUESDAY! OMG!
'nuff said.

Niom...better ♥

Ooh seeing David made me feel so much better. I'm so glad he could stay too. We had a really good chat last night too, I was so happy hearing it, we had a good laugh, took me ages to get him up this morning, lazy bastard haha! But yeah, it was really nice. So yeah, good day, sunny, warm, just nice generally. Mood is definitely better even if we do have to get up early for school tomorrow, least I can see David more often. Stupid exams. Stupid revision. But yeah. All is better in the life of Sam =]

Bad, bad, bad.

Exams. Life. My mind.
All not very good. My German oral is nearing and I am so going to fail it! My chose topic isn't ready, I have to get it ready then learn it in like 2 weeks, ish. I am not doing so good right now. All the exams are mid-May end of May and so yeah, they're getting here. I am so stressed out about them and I'm worried that its affecting my mind into thinking other things, but then I think well maybe it's true? Maybe its not my mind, then everything's fine again, then its not it's just... ARGH WTF GRR!! I am really moody and yeah I need him, but he's not around and its killing me...didn't even speak to him today...it's driving me insane, maybe I'm too needy for him...so worried, I don't want that to be the case but, it could be I mean, maybe its just the timing what with exams and revision but AH I need to see him. Now. I just want to cry to be honest. I just want to hide away in another world where everything is perfect...I hope we talk to tomorrow. I hope I SEE him tomorrow...I really need to... I need to clear this up before I go too crazy.

Wow.

I am really quite happy right now, my little happy bubble is back, which is always good! Yeah I'm doing ICT and Business studies revision right now but, even that couldn't being me down. All that could is him...he is what got me like this...he fucks up, so does my mind, but right now he is doing FAB. Had a really good night on Tuesday/Wednesday morning lol. We were up pretty much all night just...well...I'm going to say 'chilllin'' but uhh, yeah, that's all you need to know lol. It was good though, just hugged lots and tried to sleep but, failed haha. I was too excited to be fair, that he was allowed to stay the night, made me happy.

Got another hike on Saturday too that hopefully David is coming on. Which is nice. Can see him again. Even if I am looking oh so attractive in my sexy hiking gear lol, it's fun, I'm getting into my hiking now, even if I am a lazy bugger I still manage! I just fall asleep in the car on the way home usually haha, oh well. Should be good. But yeah, Sam is SO happy it's unreal...love you xxx