Feeling pretty good…

Well, atm, I am feeling pretty good to be honest. My mood, for some reason is just, WOOSHH in the sky, it’s good. I mean David helps, definitely, but like, I should be really hormonal and just BLURGH with everyone but, I’m not, I feel really nice and stuff…I don’t even want to hit James as much…and I always do that. It’s crazy folks. It’s good though obviously. Just feeling really good, weather is…sort of getting better, has the off day but generally, having a good time at school, German is still taking over but, I’m okay, I’m coping with it all, now just got to make sure I get all my revision and stuff done to make sure I do well. In Business I got a B in unit 1 so that’s a very good start, but have to make sure I don’t get complacent and keep working hard or I’ll fail, and that will be bad!! But yeah, life is pretty good, getting to a kind of clingy stage with Davey though, my confidence in going up to him and hugging him is growing so…poor him haha. Oh well, if it bugs him he can…dump me or whatever, but I really hope he doesn’t, he has really made my year so far.

School really is killing me.

School. GERMAN! TOO MUCH. To put it simply.

I cannot put up with all this german homework and having to write and learn our oral questions for May 4th!! OMGGG,, I'm so stressed. Good thing today though I managed to get my English coursework out of the way which is one thing off my mind now, hopefully will never have to see it again I hope! But yes, german is still a bitch, we technically have 3 different teachers giving us work to do so it is just so stresseful and...TOO MUCH GERMAN. But I suppose I might drop it next year anyway, it is great I do like it but it's stressing me out, I guess I will just see how I do in the exam I mean if I do really well I will carry it on but, I mean like high B or A, otherwise I will probably drop it...english, business and ICT are good and Japanese lets not forget my EXTRA one there so...I will still have a nice work load...great...GOD I'M SO STRESSED.

One nice thing at the moment though, David =] ♥

Worries...

I'm worried that David has really gotten angry over all the shit that's been going on, he seemed kind of off today, didn't see him much, and he didn't talk to me like he said he would...just really worried that the arguments have fucked it all up, like it was all a waste, I hope he's just avoiding me for my sake not because I'm too needy and upset right now and he doesn't wanna know...I'm really hoping...Just needed him tonight...and, nothing...couldn't even get hold of him on his phone, MSN, nothing...kind of gutted. But hey, life goes on, I guess I will just have to hope it's anger and stress and hope it blows over and goes back to normal soon....

Oh my fucking god, TWAT.

Last night and the night before I had a massive argument with this guy and some other people got involved as it was on Facebook and everything and I was just SO angry at him, he is such an ungrateful little shit! I could not believe some of the stuff he was saying to me after all I did for him, I was in tears for basically two nights now, but thankfully last night I was at Sara's, so I did have her to help me cope and she also had a go at him too afterwards on her MSN (cos he's blocked me on mine, obviously) so yeah, I felt a bit better. David was involved too, kind of sad and annoying I am just like, can you lot please leave us alone! They seem to have problems with me and David and it's really annoying tbf, I can't take it for much longer, I'm going to lose like all my friends again cos of a guy, can I not do anything right? Sara said she shouldn't fall out with me, I hope not, she's all I really fully have left, if all goes wrong with David, she will be who I run to, I mean yeah there are some other friends, but she's the closest right now...if I lost her I don't know what I'd do...

Mood: SO MUCH BETTER.

Wow. My mood has really shot up since yesterday. I am not going to go into why, it's private, you just have to trust me, I am really, really happy about it though. I love David, muchly. Fini. End of. Nothing can bring my mood down...except maybe his silly drama rehearsals...oh well, they have to be done, can't see him much though, least I know why, least he's not just ignoring me haha. But still, anything or anyone who ruins my happy bubble DIES! =]

Bored. Wine is nice.

So bored right now waiting for the lover to receive my texts and maybe let me know if I am seeing him today or not, quite dull if I'm honest. OMG. Maybe he's been eaten...or doesn't want to see me today, just didn't see him much yesterday...I miss him haha. And I'm lonely, drinking wine at the moment, mm I love it, makes me happier during the wait I guess haha. Grr him.