Just a little unstable...

Just a little...


Like a smidge...


Not enough to worry people.


The crying will stop soon enough.

xo

Stupid arrogant, deceitful men.

You don't have to be held down, 
Be held down, be held down, be held down.
Cos I used to be a shell,
Yeah I let him rule my world, my world, oh yeah,
But I woke up and grew strong
And I can still go on
And no one can take my pearl!
You don't have to be a shell,
No, you're the one that rules your world, oh.
You are strong and you'll learn
That you can still go on
And you'll always be a pearl...
She is unstoppable.


I tried.
That's it.

He wants to be an arrogant prick. Fine.

I'm not risking my perfect relationship for him again.
Fuck. That. Shit.


Ross is too amazing for that.

He's not worth it.

I realise now. Finally.

xo

26/03/11...

UWE open day yesterday...
Was quite nice there, the course looks really interesting =)
Hopefully I get the grades...


Something's gone terribly wrong
Can't turn back now I'm haunted...


Saturday night. Luke's Party.

Was pretty fun, got to hang with Kirstie & Matt and people I haven't hung with in so long, loved it.
But...David...

We chatted and shizz...he says he'll talk to me but...we'll see.
Had many Tequila Rosé shots...and vodka...danced a lot...

I should have stayed away.


Seeing Ross soon...
We need some chats, and I really need a hug...
Confused & hungover...blurgh.

I love him, need him to make it go away... x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x

♥

I Love You

La La
La La La La


I like your smile
I like your vibe
I like your style
But that's not why I love you


I, I like the way
You're such a star
But that's not why I love you


Hey, do you feel?
Do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel too?
Do you need?
Do you need me?


You're so beautiful
But that's not why I love you
I'm not sure you know
That the reason I love you is you
Being you 
Just you
Yeah the reason I love you is
All that we've been through
& that's why I love you


La La
La La La La


I like the way
You misbehave
When we get wasted
But that's not why I love you


And how 
You keep your cool
When I am complicated
But that's not why I love you


Hey, do you feel?
Do you feel me?
Do you feel what I feel too?
Do you need?
Do you need me?

You're so beautiful

But that's not why I love you

I'm not sure you know

That the reason I love you is you

Being you 

Just you

Yeah the reason I love you is

All that we've been through

& that's why I love you

Yeah, oh, oh

Even if we never make it through

I am always here for you

You're so beautiful

But that's not why I love you

I'm not sure you know

That the reason I love you is you

Being you 

Just you

Yeah the reason I love you is

All that we've been through

& that's why I love you

La La

La La La La

That's why I love you

Oh, oh

That's why I love you

♥

Innocent.

I guess you really did it this time
Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin' to get it back

Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything?
And everybody believed in you?

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent
You're still an innocent

There's some things you can't speak of
But tonight you'll live it all again
You wouldn't be shattered on the floor now
If only you would sing what you know now then

Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?
And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep?
Before the monsters caught up to you?

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent

It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent

Time turns flames to embers
You'll have new Septembers
Every one of us has messed up too

Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never to late to
Be brand new

It's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights are still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent

It's okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin' up now
Who you are is not what you did
You're still an innocent


Lost your balance on a tightrope...
It's never too late to get it back...
♥


xo

You are the best thing that's ever been mine ♥

I ran out cryin'
& you followed me out into the street...
Braced myself for the goodbye
Cos that's all I've ever know
& you took me by surprise...
You said I'll never leave you alone...


♥

You made a rebel of a careless man's, careful daughter
You are the best thing, that's ever been mine


♥
xo

Come on show 'em what you're worth.

Cos baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go oh, oh, oh
As you shoot across the sky-y-y


Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colours burst
Make 'em go oh, oh, oh
You're gonna leave 'em all in awe, awe, awe



I wanna be better than this;
Fitter, stronger, faster, smarter.

I wanna be a firework but I don't think I've got the sparks...


You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew, what the future holds
After a hurricane, comes a rainbow ♥


I wanna be that girl they look at and go...wow...

xo

Ich weiss nicht...

Ich weiss nicht, was ich will von Leben.
Ich habe Angst vor der Zukunft...
Kann ich selbstständig leben, ohne mein Eltern?

Ich bin besorgte dass ich kann es nicht machen...

xo

ABC.

English - A
Buss2 - B
Buss3 - C

Not bad, so fucking chuffed with my A!
And Buss3 I can retake in summer :D


Pretty chuffed. Could of been better, but it's not bad
Not bad at all =)

xo

Ummmm...

Don't lose it all
In the blur of the stars
Seeing is deceiving
Dreaming is believing
It's okay not to be okay...


Sometimes it's hard
To follow your heart
Tears don't mean you're losing
Everybody's bruising
Just be true to who you are.


I get my first A2 results back on Thursday...craaaaap.
I hope I've done well, if not, bye bye Uni.
It's actually really stressing me out, I don't know what to do with my life.

Why am I even going to Uni?
What do I plan to do?
Why am I freakin' bothering?!

Ah well, I'm sure it'll all be clear on Thursday.